I operate a lot out of guilt. Well, I used to. So there are still remnants of that for me.
I'm not talking about the good kind of guilt...the kind where we know or sensed we've done something bad, and then we feel guilty about it.
I'm talking about a bad kind of guilt. Guilt that comes from low self-esteem. I try to compensate for my low self-esteem by overly defining myself through achievement. I end up feeling like I'm never doing enough, and I feel a lot of unnecessary guilt.
I would like to flush this bad kind of guilt out of my system. I may have grown up feeling and operating this way, but I can be totally different now.