Wednesday, May 24, 2017

The hard part is just beginning

This is my last post in this series of posts on patience! When I started this series, I couldn't wait to finish it because I didn't like thinking about patience. Now that I'm here, I can only say that the hard work is just beginning. Patience is a lifelong attitude, and well, struggle.

My definition of patience is happily waiting for something you really want and/or need.

The key word is, happily.

I'm working on it.

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Patience for ages

It's hard for me to imagine myself practicing patience...forever. It's hard for me to imagine myself even being patient right after I stop focusing/writing about patience in this series of posts.


This is where some rational, inner self-talk comes in. 


I have to rationally tell myself that I'm going to always need patience because there are ALWAYS going to be things I really want, that I don't have in that moment yet. Lots of things.


I have to rationally tell myself that I want to be patient in the future because patience is a virtue, a good trait. I want to be good. And along with that, there are many, many positive things that come from being patient.


It's basically just a lot of talking to myself.

Monday, May 22, 2017

I want intimacy (deep emotional intimacy) in my life...right now.

I want to feel truly comfortable in my own skin...to be fully my own person outside of any job, relationships, role, etc. that might define me...to love doing things on my own...I want to be this independent...right now.


I want to be proud of how I do my job, be proud of the kind of person I am at my job, and feel like I could leave my job with my head held high...right now.


I want to experience a new kind of relationship in my life...to have a quality relationship with my own child...right now.


I want to see my sister in a truly fulfilling relationship and being the best person she can be...right now.


And a lot more.

Sunday, May 21, 2017

I think I'm going to end my series on patience soon. I feel like I have my impatience a little more under control now. I feel somewhat more confident, confident enough, in my ability to be patient now.

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Coming to a place of peace about patience 

I don't feel like I'm fighting the idea of patience as much as I was before. I feel like I'm kind of okay with it. I kind of even like it actually.

Friday, May 19, 2017

Starting from the Bible

In all this time that I've been talking and thinking about patience, I've hardly thought about what the Bible says about it.


Which is weird, because the Bible is the foundation for how I approach everything. I believe everything in the Bible to be true, and as I just said, it is the foundation for how I live life.


So maybe that's why I've been feeling so off this whole time I've been thinking about patience. I didn't start with the Bible as my foundation, as I normally would have for something like this. I can only conclude that this is because patience is a concept I really resist, or something.


So now I've forced myself to think about what the Bible says about patience.


The Bible clearly considers patience important. It's mentioned all over the Bible.


The Bible also instructs us to be patient. Patience is an action, something we must consciously try to do, a muscle to be used.


On a personal application level, I take all of this to mean that...this is a clear sign I'm supposed to take patience seriously!


It's also a very noble feature. Patience is mentioned as one of God's characteristics, as love, and as one of the fruits of the Holy Spirit.


In the past, there was a part of me that whenever I thought about patience, I just thought of a really boring, really old person, sitting around. It made me cringe. 


I don't know where I got this distorted idea/vision of patience from. My own immaturity, I suppose.


Now, when I think about patience, I hope to immediately think of it as something wonderful that brings joy to my heart...


I hope to see it as some combination of love, hope, faith, self-control, goodness...


I hope that what comes to mind is a wonderful person, lively and full of inner strength.

Thursday, May 18, 2017

The longer I'm going on about the topic of patience, the harder it is for me. I really have to dig deep.

Today I want to talk about how having anything good in life requires patience.


I'm not talking about having superficially good things in life, happiness that mainly only lasts for moments. Such as finding a good parking space, indulging in something luxurious, experiencing thrills from an exciting activity, having a fun moment, a temporary boost to our self-esteem, etc.


I'm also not talking about having survival needs met and having basic lifestyle needs met, which is obviously a very important and good thing to have, but beyond what I'm talking about today.


I'm talking about happiness that comes from having something very meaningful to us, whatever it may be. Independence, quality relationships of all types, leaving behind a good legacy, etc. 


These things touch a part of ourselves that is very central to us. So central that they are mostly in our subconscious being.


They are significant. And the effects on us of having these things, or not having these things, are long-lasting.


These things take time to develop. Time is a key ingredient. They require patience.